I started back on a Wednesday, which was huge. It help make the change a little less abrupt.
It was surprising how nice the first couple weeks were. I got to see all my work peeps, real adults, most that didn’t have kids….I could have conversations that didn’t involve feedings and diaper changes. I even went to happy hour.
It was nice.
I was so busy that first month or two back, I didn't have time to think of anything else. I was having huge months (I'm in sales) and still having time to be home and cook dinner and spend time with my family.
Then the holidays came and broke it all up.
I was home a lot, gotta loves sales jobs during the holidays.
I was still very happy.
Then January came.
And my baby was growing like crazy. Changing by the minute! It was getting harder to leave her, especially after being home with her for 2 weeks.
Business started slowing down...which means working harder and longer hours.
Which means stress.
Which means not so happy Momma.
I started thinking....is this still working?
And honestly, it's now April...and I am still asking myself that question.
There are days when I am having a bad one and I just want to throw in the towel and stay in bed with Elise and cuddle all. day. long.Then there are days where I get a big deal I didn't think I was gonna get and I know that I just added extra monies to our new house fund! And I am ecstatic and I am proud of myself.
Being a working mom is no joke....
It is long days and short nights.
Running errands on your lunch break.
Staying up late to finish laundry or goodies for school the next day.
Cleaning 3 times a day....when you are only home and awake in it for about 5 hours a day! Can someone please explain this to me?!
Constantly feeling like
someone everyone is getting the short end of the stick....hubs, baby, work, family, friends.
Extra stress...and less sleep.
Trying to be flexible all while having a strict schedule.
Feeling jealous of those moms that are at home with their little one...or at the park enjoying the weather with picnics and swings.
And even with all that....for right now, it is working for us.Who knows, maybe I will decide a month from now it doesn't work......maybe I will turn a corner and work after baby number 2.
I am a woman and I am emotional I don't want to make a decision based on a bad day. \
So for all of you working moms out there I feel your pain! And I salute you and support you for every bit of hard work you do!
We just have to remember, it’s all for them! :)
And to share our obstacles and tips and tricks...we can help each other out!! :)
High Five! HA!